For you my friend back home

We are not so little anymore, actually
Us, and our big dreams
That might surpass our capabilities
But we are both pushing it
Until we reach the limit

Our doors crack
Escaping lights to things darkened
But they are hard to break open
We push and push some more
And they budge a little
Sometimes we forgot why are we pushing hard
In doubt and desperation, we break our brittle hearts

Peeking from my window
I imagine her, peeking through hers
Twenty somewhat years in our bags
Twenty thousand miles, we both lag
But I still remember
And it somehow makes some things easier
Because her words and prayer
Her spirit and fire
They count... a lot...

So, my friend, be merry
Exactly like how your parents wanted you to be
I can't say if we're both going to break in
But when we are both done fiddling with our doors
Let's look up a bit
And know that He is bigger than our dreams


Austin, 20th February 2009

If you have been my roomie or know me more than normal. Then you probably know this. When I like a song, I'd play it continously, again and again, for about three days to a week. Then after that the hype starts to slow down. When I was in secondary school, it was Big Yellow Taxi by Counting Crows. I sang that song going to school and coming home from school. Not for two years of course, but I remember, it went for quite some time. Last semester it was Ingrid Michaelson's songs. Last summer, it was Marie Digby. So, yeah, apparently I like songs in a very timely manner.

So, I just want to share three songs that I listen to often lately. They are all different in terms of genre and message, but I love them all.

First is "By My Side" by Tenth Avenue North. I heard it the first time in ICF's Saturday Morning Fellowship last week from Ivan. I fell in love immediately because it resonates with me and how it reminds me that I am loved tremendously.



The second one is "Love Story" by Taylor Swift. I first heard in on the radio and thought it was an OK song and forgot all about it. Then, Jennifer Chung, one of my favorite youtube artist did a cover of it and I thought it was really cute. I started viewing the original video and as always, could not stop repeating it. It brings out the princessy side of me, the unrealistic, chick-flick lover girl who wants a pink unicorn for her birthday.



And the last one is a sing I knew from radityadika.com. The Indonesian blogger turned book writer turned actor who has a movie coming out next month. This song is one of the track for the movie. It's called "Adelaide Sky" by Adhithia Sofyan, a singer songwriter from Indonesia. I actually haven't listened to it as much as the other two. But, I probably will in a few days after I get over my "By My Side" hype.



Facebook was buzzing a week ago with this note posts of 25 random things stuff. I honestly very rarely do this kind of list because it is tiring. But I got tagged by like 6 or 7 people and in the midst of crazy college life, I decided to halt and forgot about tests and all and entertained myself by doing it. So, rather than just letting it rot on Facebook space, I'll post it here too. Thanks for all who replied, I should comment on it too soon.

So here is my 25 random things:

1. I appeared on national TV in Indonesia when I was in kindergarten. I was in a play and my role was a fish. only had 1 line and 1 thing to do: "Hi, I am a fish" and then I swam away...

2. I resort to crying and emotional burst when I am stressed out, though not many people now that because I close my door when I do so. And my dad is actually scared everytime I cry and gets all awkward because he doesn't know what to do :)

3. I am very very lazy at cleaning up, like doing dishes and laundrying, which explains my basket brimming with dirty clothes.

4. I am seriously terrible at direction. I got lost almost everywhere: inside Takashimaya mall, going to Walmart, and even when I have GPS to guide me. Yes, I am THAT bad.

5. I think.. I THINK.. I am pretty good at listening to people.

6. I have moved to and lived at 8 different cities so far (Jakarta, New Orleans, Rumbai, Duri, Semarang, Singapore, Bali, Austin).

7. I don't do pets. I had a dog, kitten, puppy, turtle, and a fighting fish before. And I can assure you, non of them died a natural death.

8. I am a big believer of sleeping 8 hours a day. I sleep quite a lot really. But I get quite frustrated when people call me up and the first thing they say is "Did you just wake up?" or "Are you sleeping?" I mean, sometimes it's true that I did just wake up. But, a lot of times I am fully awake and people still ask that... Is there something wrong with the way I answer calls, really???

9. I don't like it when people call me by a friends' name. People would call me "Vick" from Vicky because it's similar to "Vid", or "Lydia" because it is similar to "Vidia", and there's this person who would often mistakenly call me "Lisa", because.... I really don't know why...

10. I luuuuurve frozen yogurt and ice cream, and trying out new desert places, or have any activities that relate to them (like watching movie and eating them).

11. My favorite ice cream is: Ben and Jerry's frozen yogurt cherry garcia... yuuuummmm...

12. I hate career expo and smiling and making small talk to strangers who would hopefully giving me a job.

13. I am cheap. I check slickdeals.net several times a day.

14.I have a marketing test on Friday and I don't even have the book!!!! And it is not in any of the UT libraries!!!! I probably have to run down to COOP today and buy it huh?

15. I am a HUUUUGE fan of FRIENDS. But I starting to get a little bored of it because I probably watch every episode 4 to 5 times now.

16. I know nothing about Chinese/ Taiwanese/ Hongkong singer, actor, or drama series, which would baffle some people. Other than F4 and Frog Prince (Thanks to Alice), I know NOTHING more.

17. I have watched every single episode of "Termehek-mehek" that are posted on youtube. It is a bit embarassing that I loveee them because I believe that some of them are made up and they are a little too dramatic. But they are really really entertaining. You should watch it too!!

18. I am quite bad at talking with new people. I'll be very shy (which is actually me by nature), awkward, and won't know what to talk about. But, I am talkative to people that I am close to.

19. I secretly want to be a little taller, although I try to psyched myself up about the beauty and advantages of being short :)

20. I love rollercoasters, and I am really sorry for pushing Dwee to ride one even though I know she doesn't like it. And I am really sorry I told her that riding a rollercoaster is like riding the MRT. Coz I know it's a huge lie.

21. East Coast Park is the best place to chill, jog, and count airplanes.

22. I never check my friendster and hotmail account anymore because my hotmail is full of friendster notification and friendster is full of nothing. Facebook and gmail rule my cyber world now.

23. I just realized that coffee DOES have an effect on me. All this time I thought it's just a myth coz it never works for me.

24.I usually have a to do list and I enjoy crossing them one by one with a victorious smile.

25. I recommend Marie Digby to everyone. Check her out on youtube.

There they are!! :)

Anyways, I'm looking forward to the coming weekend because this week has been pretty hectic. It's Valentine's weekend! Not that I have special plan or anything, but it's a great time to catch up with some people I think. I'm thinking of making Valentine's breakfast for my roomies probably cos I saw this cute heart shaped egg in bread that I think I can make. And Bella is coming into the apartment this weekend to stay for the rest of the semester. We'll see.

Hang in there everyone! Weekend will be worth it!


Duri, 15th January

It's 15th of January already. It's one over 24th of a year! It's 4 days before I'm Austin bound! I remember how happy I was when I got to Jakarta. My mom and my aunt were fetching me from the airport, and of course as most would react, they were surprised at how much fatter I looked. But, I prepared myself for that already, so I wasn't sad or disappointed; it was expected. Now, here I am, after five cities, twelve old friends, a lot of family members, eight medium-sized bags of chitato, seven packages of my favorite hot cassava chips, two weddings, and countless DVDs, I am unfortunately almost at the end of my vacation. Reality hit when my boss asked for our work schedule for the coming semester and I suddenly remembered that I had to buy my books already. I still hadn't bought all of them yet because one of the transactions got cancelled; the bank said it was a suspicious transaction and it needs my approval first. And another book got sold out. So, I realized that WOW, school is really really coming soon.... and I freaked out a little, but then I watched "Mamma Mia" and ate my hot cassava chips, and all is good again :)



I've got to say that New Year's night was awesome. I was just with my dad, mom, and my sister. It's the new year that I remember the most. Probably because it happened most recently, which makes a lot of sense. But, I think it was pretty special. The four of us don't get together much, you see. Just a few days in a year. And, we are not the loudest or the roudiest bunch either. In fact, we are pretty calm and boring people. My sister, for example, could glue her eyes to her Nintendo DS for hours. While, I, myself, was geeky enough to be satisfied with reading my new book, 'Maryamah Karpov', which I think was certainly entertaining, but was not that excellent. My parents, they looove sleeping and watching TV at home. So, it was safe to say that we were not going to go out partying on the streets of Jakarta. We did not even want to go out to the mall because we did not want to be stuck in the traffic. Yes, we are that adventurous.



We stayed in my uncle's apartment in Kelapa Gading, North Jakarta, on the 18th floor. In the afternoon of 31st December, we were just watching TV. Since my sister hadn't eaten dinner yet, we went down to find food. The apartment building is surrounded by people selling food underneath big tents. The tents are only set up at nights and people are selling a large variety of food. They have everything from Japanese to Javanese. When I say tents, I mean spaces underneath a tarp. So, it's just open space, with tables and chairs and an open kitchen, with a tarp over it. My sister wanted to eat a steak, so we sat underneath this blue tarp in a tent that sold American food, and she ordered a chicken steak. The rest of us were not really eating; just french fries and calamari as our side dishes. I don't remember exactly how we got there, but our conversation over dinner got pretty special. The conversation is not any secret at all, but it's pretty personal for me. Let's just say that there was a few tears and more laughter than usual. I'm not gonna go into details, because I tried and it got boring. It's basically about how life was pretty tough on some of us and at that particular moment, looking back, it's pretty amazing that we got to that point. And, over the chicken steak and the taste-like-rubber calamari, we cried, and we laughed. We laughed at how life can be too overwhelming sometimes but it's full of blessings at the same time. We laughed at how each of us walk our own path, but our paths intertwine so tightly that we walked together. We did what we ought to do more often: we laughed at life.

After dinner, we played Cluedo, this American board game that I actually bought for my cousin, but ended up being my sister's. We played all the way til midnight. Right at midnight, we saw the governor of Jakarta on TV giving a speech, then we realized.. It's New Year already!!! So, we ran to the window and saw this spectacular view of Jakarta. Mind you, we were on the 18th floor. From East to West, as far as your eyes can see, there were fireworks everywhere, cars stuck in traffic were honking and little kids blowing their trumpets as hard as they could. But, the fireworks were the most amazing. Litterally we were surrounded by flights of lights of every color, with their explosive cracking sounds. There was one Chinese guy, on the street right in front of the apartment launching his fireworks, too. So we got a great show right in front of our eyes. I was clapping and shouting the whole time, so excited like a kid on a magic show. It was fantastic. Then, only 20 minutes later, the whole thing died down. I know that this is gonna be a party pooper, but man, I can't imagine the amount of trash that had to be cleaned out the next day. But, for that half an hour, the whole Jakarta forgot that flood is still going to come this year, and the trash we just threw did not help at all. We forgot that there was still work tomorrow and traffic jams to face. We forgot that people are still dying not only in Gaza, but in all corners of this country. We just allowed ourselves to be drown in the celebration and closed our ears to everything except the cheers. We were happy for 30 minutes.

That was my New Year.

Happy belated New Year!



One of my favorite songs by Francesca Batistelli. Happy Birthday, Jesus. Please be patient with me, with my crazy dreams and thoughts, with my imperfectness in many ways, with my indifference in some days. My false desires, mood swings, fears, and false humility, I am trying to take them away, as my gift for you this year.

You were there when your Father said
Let there be light
You obeyed when He whispered
Son, You have to leave tonight
To spend nine months in a mothers womb
Three days in a borrowed tomb

But it’s the time in between
That brings me to my knees
Knowing you came for me
And all that I can't be
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank You for the time in between

Don't take much for this crazy world
To rob me of my peace
And the enemy of my soul
Says You’re holding out on me
So I stand here lifting empty hands
For you to fill me up again

But it’s the time in between
That I fall down to my knees
Waiting on what You'll bring
And the things that I can't see
I know my song’s incomplete
Still I'll sing in the time in between

So many ways
Your love has saved the day
And I'm grateful for them all

But it’s the time in between
The middle of two thieves
That says everything
It’s the reason I believe
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank you for the time in between
Oh Lord, I thank you for the time in between


It’s raining outside and I can hear the water dripping onto a tin roof. It doesn’t annoy me. If you add the symphony of toads croacking, it would be one of my childhood nights, which was annoying back then, but now not anymore. The morning just arrived, I think a porridge seller just passed by. I’ve been awake since it was dark, probably 4.30 am, although I’m not really sure what time it was. Since I landed, I’m never sure of the time and day. Well, why should I? When you’re on holiday, time doesn’t matter anymore, because there’s no deadline and no pressing matter to do. Well, except when you have to know that it’s 2 pm and you’ve got to stop browsing clothes already, pay your stuff, and meet your family in the main entrance of the factory outlet. Yes, people, I’m in Bandung!

I’m here primarily for my cousin’s wedding. It was short, sweet, beautiful. She was prettier than ever, with the white flowing wedding dress and curled hair. I love weddings and people exchanging rings, ceremonies with sacraments and couples saying vows. It’s pretty chilling actually, knowing that the vows are forever. When you are 26, you have to know that you’ll spend about 64 more years of your life committed to one person. That’s assuming that you would die of old age at 90 years old, of course. But, as much as they are scary, promises are exciting, assuring, and calming. They are the firm embrace when a lot of other things fail. They are love when you are sick, your pet dies, you fail to graduate, you don’t get a raise when everyone else does, when your twin children comes out two months before, or when the rainbow keeps hiding after the rain. They are love when you recover from your dengue fever, you buy a 2 month old golden retriever as you love puppy, your boss got laid off and you have his office, when your baby screams to the world for the first time, or when you find a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Promises are scary, but they are beautiful and powerful. Promising to run is already half the marathon. Promising to die is half of human’s liberation. A wedding vow is half of a family's foundation. The other half is keeping it.


So, from the bottom of my heart, cheers to Devi and Igun, and their lives ahead. May you stay true to your “I do’s” and may God bless your family.

Bandung, 23 Dec 2008


This is gonna be a quick shout out just to brag that I'm in Japaaaan!!!! I know it's just a one day transit, but it makes me quite happy :) The journey home has been satisfying. I mean, there is some drama in Austin airport where we almost miss our flight. If you are planning to travel with American Airlines.. DON'T!!! The service that they gave us that morning was terrible. We were waiting since the counter had not opened yet, til it's full brimming with people. Basically we got sent to the wrong line and after an hour of waiting they told us to go to the other line and wait again. Whaaat... Lisa, Wiwin, and I were quite angry, but luckily.... Vicky and Jeffrey were there to send us and they were the cool headed ones. And Vicky stormed to the first class passenger check in and explained the whole situation and screamed passionately and dramatically, "They are going to miss their flight!!!!!" Hahaha thanks Vick... So, for Vicky and Jeffrey.. As a thank you for waking up way too early in the morning to send us home, here's a little something for you two from Japan.

Yes Vick!!! It's your own, one and only, Japanese Coca-cola Zero!!!!


And for you Jeffrey, some fresh Japanese sushi! And I ate them on behalf on you! :)
Yeap, so we're gonna leave Japan in about 3 hours now and I have to go down for breakfast. There some drama in the Narita Airport too... One involving an electrical engineering girl, and her lost passport.. So it's definitely not me.. And it's definitely either Wiwin or Lisa. Haha.. take your own guess. So, here is another pic from Japan and I'll say bye!!!

Bye!!!! Indonesia, here I come! Abang2 ketoprak, wait for me!! Otak-otak dan lumpia Semarang, I lap yu!!


Seriously? The last time was July? So, yeah, I guess this entry is long overdue. Pretty obvious from the spam comments all over this blog. And finally, here I am, out of boredom at work decided to blab for a while :). It's Friday night and as usual I'm in the METER lab having a night shift. I always promise myself to get something done during my Friday night shift, and not once has that happened. The heart is willing, but the flesh is weak, you see.

I am having my last exam tomorrow night and in four days, I'm heading back home. Oh, I can't wait to be home. Last year, my dad said that I haven't changed a bit. All the Singapore and US experiences, all the money he splurged to give me a high-end education, and the many years marked by blown candles and weight gain, haven't changed me. Really, Dad? I feel that I HAVE changed, though, hopefully for the better. But, I do realize that once I'm back home, I retreated to how I was about 7 years ago. I forget that I am 22, drive a car, and almost graduate. I forget that I'm supposed to be a mature lady, who has been well-educated, strong-willed, opinionated, and has seemingly important goals to reach. Once I'm home, I feel good to just be the youngest in the family and throw all responsibilities to my sister. And once in a while, I hide behind "teenage hormonal reasons" as an excuse for waking up at 11 am. Haha, yea right, more like pure laziness!

But, believe me, I have changed. I just don't really show it to my parents, so the way they see it, I'm still this 15 years old girl who wants to be a librarian, kindergarten teacher, police woman, and build a potato chips factory all at the same time. I know more about life now. I've seen some drama, I've tasted some hardwork, I've felt uncertainties. I think about them, and I act on them. I maybe naive at times and I still want the world to change into a giant Disneyland. But, I've grown quite a bit. So, give me a break if for a month in a year, I turn back to the girl who clings unto her mom's apron and forget that the world is still patiently waiting for her works. Home, here I go!!!

Okay, I've got to chase some people out of this lab, now. Time's up people! Got to shut down the lab.


I was looking through Mbak Ima's picasa album and saw these pictures and thought of perfect captions for them. This is for you, Lyd.. Happy Birthday by the way..

Pete: Lyd, sini gw kasih tau...
Lyd: Apaan sih, Pete?

Pete: Kalau ditampar pipi kananmu...

Pete: Berikanlah pipi kirimu...

Lyd: Aaah... ngantuk denger lu ngomong, Pete..

Hehe... I have no idea what they were doing really... It was one of the Summer Book Review session.. which reminds me that I haven't read for tomorrow's meeting. I've really got to start disciplining myself.

Sigh, how ironic that my day started with grabbing a book by my bed and reading it for an hour before I finally got up and brushed my teeth, and the most important point that I got from the book was that discipline is necessary for you to have a filled and happy life. And I got really pumped up and made it a point to be discipline, yet I failed that today. Oh well... I better do something useful now and not slack off anymore! yay!


Summer's been great so far, with its relaxing days and me waking up without an alarm clock, with the chats late at night, playing games and watching movies. And ice cream tastes a lot better when you have humid and freakishly hot days. Proctoring job has been a breeze. Easy money, basically. Midland online class? It's a joke, really. Well, it does take some time to complete, which helps me to think higher of myself by doing something that's somewhat productive. All in all, I'm living a little princess' life this summer, gluing my eyes to the TV and having lots of time to think about my pink pony before I sleep.

Haha, I do sound like a big fat sloth. But, seriously, I'm just enjoying my relaxing time right now, knowing that next semester's gonna be pretty tight. Other than all of the things I've mentioned, I'm looking around for future grad school and trying to start to study GRE. It's pretty fun researching on schools. And, I think I know what I want to do in grad school already. I think... or I feel. Well, I think and feel that I sort of know. Hahaha I don't blame you if you're not convinced. But, at least I'm moving, putting one foot ahead of the other, and praying that I'm heading in the right direction.

Well, nothing else that that's exciting to tell, maybe other than my New Orleans trip. I've been postponing to write it, because when you've told the story to several ppl, it's not that fun to write it anymore. But, maybe in my not-so-slothy days, I'll staple my bottom to a chair and chain my wrists to the keyboard and write about it.

Have a sunny summer, everyone!